Still a Gypsy

I'm posting this as sort of a public soul searching event. I'm wanting to get a sense of the calling that God has on y life. I know I won't find the asnwer here, but I feel like I really need to get some things off my chest, talk about what I like and dislike. I love writing my poems, I like having the time set aside to do so. I love beign surrrounded by animals of all sorts except pigs. I'd love to one day plant a garden and be able to truly enjoy where I am. I want to be able to just stop and smell life all around me. I want to marry a good man, a wonderful man, who would complete a family unit. If he's my opposite, that would be fine as long as he is living for Jesus Christ, Baptized in JEsus' Name, Filled with the Holy Ghost. I wnat to enjoy every season God made and called Good, and I want to enjoy and find joy in all seasons of my life. I want to joy in the simple things as well as the grand. I'd like the freedom to persue what interests me, or curiosities. I want whatever I do to have some meaning. I want to impact this world for Christ, and make things better than when I came here. Even if God doesn't wnat things to get better, i.e. His second coming, things will wax worse, before He comes, I still want to do my own part of trying. I don't just want to lay down and forget those who are struggling. I want to be ready, a part of that church without spot or wrinkle. I want to be in the center of God's will, not my own or mankind's, but God's. I want to be able to be used by Him, for His glory, not for bad things in the world, but a force for good.Amen.